inkskinned:

you open up your palm and inside is ugly so you close them again, quickly, before you see the things you let go of.
 
today you’re thinking about people you lost touch with. some of them you’re not sad to see go. it’s her birthday today. maybe you should leave a note. remember that one time you tortured me for sport?
 
but then some of them swell up inside you because you know it’s your fault. what, are you supposed to saunter back into their lives after so many months? just tip your hat and say i know you’re happy but what if i came around again
 
you let them go because it’s better if you don’t call them up. if you don’t make things awkward. if you don’t act like you know who they are or what they’ve done. it’s better you give them space, right. better you sail off on your own. 
 
oh, her engagement looks gorgeous. you send her a note. it’s a very forced conversation. nothing flows. okay. okay. 
 
you look down at your palm. it’s time to let go.