mysme-fics:

MMMN normally, I’d just add it to the original but that’s
already long and I wanna see how many people read for Baehee =w= Normally she
barely gets like. 20. :’)))

The original with the RFA boys:  [Here]

–R.I.

Request Killing: 15/30

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MC’s Unrequited Love for Jaehee

• Naturally, considering Jaehee was the only other woman in
  the group, it was easier for you to get along with her.
• The men of the group were a bit overwhelming, after all…
  Yoosung tried too hard to be friendly, Zen was a bit too flirty and
  self-centered for your liking, Jumin constantly bored you with his formal
  speech and Seven only ever joked around. It wasn’t bad, but more that, in comparison, Jaehee wasn’t as… troublesome.
• Jaehee made you feel much more comfortable—she would
  actually ask about your day and listen, unlike the other men who were caught up
  in their own interests… And you were grateful to have a friend when you were
  still new to the organization. It was especially helpful that someone as
  professional and efficient as Jaehee was the one to guide you through your new
  job.
• Despite the fact that she had a busy schedule herself, she
  still made time to help you out. She taught you how to appeal to the guests,
  and supplied you with whatever information she had on the guests from previous
  years.
• Feeling guilty that you were one of the reasons that she had
  to sleep even later everyday, you thought, the least you could do was be her
  friend—get to know her and listen to her troubles, ease her mind even a little.
• You never expected yourself to fall in love with her along
  the way.
• But you couldn’t stop yourself.
• As she rambled to you about Jumin Han’s unfair treatment
  towards her, explaining how unprofessional and uncalled for it was, how she had
  to take care of his personal affairs and even his cat, despite none of that being her job… You couldn’t help but feel
  sorry for her.
• Perhaps it was the pity at first that made you keep
  listening to her talk about her struggles. And then it was admiration. The way
  she never let herself get beaten down by her boss’ high expectations and
  unreasonable requests, Jaehee faced it all on her own. She was everything you
  aspired to be—strong, independent, successful, confident.
• And beyond admiration, you found yourself simply falling in
  love with her voice, the way she spoke, the way she brought herself, or how she
  confronted others and how she calmly dealt with every situation she faced… It
  was hard not to notice how beautiful
  she was, as a person, within all these little things.
• You knew Jaehee was constantly fighting her loneliness by investing
  herself completely in her work, and pushing aside everything else, not backing
  down even when others teased her for being a single woman married to her job.
  You knew it hurt her.
• She tried to express that she wasn’t that boring, trying to make it obvious that she had interests too…
  like Zen, his acting, movies… she was desperate
  to show that she wasn’t a mere working machine. That she was a somebody too.
• At first, you thought you admired her so much you wanted to
  be like her—she was an admirable person, after all. But when the others in the
  RFA teased her, you found yourself getting really defensive for her sake. You
  didn’t think much of it at first; you’re friends, after all, and don’t friends
  defend each other?
• That was what you thought until Seven brought it up one day:
  “MC, you almost sound like you’re in love with Jaehee, or something. And you
  guys seem way closer than normal friends, too! Are you suuuure there’s
  nothing~~? lololol”
• Although you had quickly denied that idea to him, it did linger in your mind. It wasn’t long
  before you realized it was true: you DID like Jaehee.
• You carefully weighed out the options. If you told Jaehee,
  well, she was a reasonable person, so she wouldn’t hurt you or anything. You
  felt comfortable telling her. You also knew that, whatwith the lack of good
  experiences she’s had with relationships, she didn’t deserve a crappy
  confession. You wanted to confess to her properly.
• So, while you were at the RFA party, you gathered the
  courage to invite her on a date to the coffeeshop—you knew she loved coffee,
  after all.
• Of course… she didn’t think of it as a date, but a friendly
  hangout.
• And you couldn’t bring yourself to reveal the truth when she
  looked so happy about it…
• “MC, you did an amazing job at the party! I can’t believe
  how professional and helpful you were, even though it was your first time,”
  Jaehee complimented you, beaming as she sat across from you in the coffeeshop.
• But of course. You had practised hours in front of the
  mirror and researched how to be the perfect party ambassador, so that you could
  lessen Jaehee’s workload as much as you could. Sure, in name you were the party
  coordinator, but you knew that Jaehee did a lot of work behind-the-scenes, more
  than you.
• She also seemed so relaxed as she sipped her ice cold drink
  in front of you, completely unaware of your longing gaze…
• Jaehee turned to you as she spoke again with a smile, “You
  know… thank you for inviting me out today. I’ve been so busy lately, I haven’t
  had the time to take a break at all. I’ve never had a friend bring me out
  before, either… You’re… probably my first real
  friend in a long while. I really love and appreciate you, MC.”
• Your breath caught in your throat, and you tried to swallow
  the pain that came from her words. She had basically just revealed that there
  was no chance of her returning your feelings. That she only saw you as a
  friend.
• Was it because you weren’t a man…? Was that it? Maybe your
  body was lacking… You knew she drooled over Zen’s muscular, fit body, after all…
• “Isn’t love a strong word?” you managed to respond to her,
  licking your lips nervously.
• She chuckled, not realizing how torn you were feeling at the
  moment. “Don’t be silly, MC. You know what I mean. Besides, Zen is the closest
  I’ll ever get to being attracted to any man, I think. I don’t have time for
  relationships, anyway.”
• “But would you consider dating a woman?” you pressed.
• She quirked an eyebrow, but still didn’t think much of your
  question. “Well, I’m not against that, but again, I don’t have time. It’s not
  like anyone, man or woman, has caught my eye in the romantic sense, either.”
• Oh. So she just
  didn’t like you. Not because of your gender, but simply because she lacked
  interest in you as a person. Ouch.
• You understood, though… It’s not like she HAD to return your
  feelings, anyway.
• Jaehee must have noticed the change in your expression, in
  addition to your silence, because she suddenly looked concerned. “Did I say
  something wrong…?”
• You shook your head and smiled tightly. “No, no. Nothing. I
  love you too, Jaehee…”
• You didn’t bother to clarify that it wasn’t in the friendly
  sense, as she had meant when she said the words to you, because you knew the
  answer would hurt you no matter how lightly she would lay it on you.
• You had to bite your bottom lip hard to hold in the tears that welled up in your eyes when you saw
  how delighted she looked to hear that you loved her, too. Because it only
  confirmed that she wanted you to be nothing more than a friend.